I figure if I’m going to be within shooting distance of you, I better try some diplomacy before I arrive.
I know this is all crazy for you, it’s all crazy for me, and it’s double crazy for Laura, who is the person I’m trying to protect and accommodate most of all in this process. People fall in love and people fall out of love and love changes all the time, but rarely for one person do they have so many things to consider, so many people to love, give attention to, and please as Laura does.
It’s also rare to come across the one person you truly believe you’re meant to be with, and not only have her married and with kids to boot, but also 2000 miles away in another sovereign nation. This isn’t a fling or a tryst or an affair, it’s two people bring bowled over by discovering a deep wellspring of powerful emotions, and a connection that they never thought possible. I don’t covet Laura, want to make her mine alone, or steal her away as much as I want to find any way possible to be in her light and warmth, and to nurture her, protect her, and grow with her, for me, and for everyone else, as much as I can.
I don’t judge people, ever. Laura doesn’t badmouth you, you’re not some loser guy we scheme against in our private conversations. Through everything she’s shown that she loves you deeply and wants to continue a large portion of the life you’ve built together with Asa, but also explore and grow in other ways. It was hard for me to accept at first too, but I’ve done so, because again, she’s just that god damned incredible a human being.
So yeah. That’s where we are. I don’t expect or anticipate a response, our relationship can be as distant or as friendly as we want going forward, when things are settled and comfortable and people adjusted. Life is crazy, and hard, but most unfair of all, short, and these connections and emotions don’t reveal themselves every day, it’d be so self-damaging not to pursue it, it’s a thought I can’t even tolerate, and I think you’ll find Laura feels the same way, and what’s more will have the chance to grow and explore in other ways that she can share with everyone she loves.